honesty

I hear a lot of people talk about honesty lately. Goodness knows hardly anyone actually understands what the word means, let alone how to be honest.

One of the hardest tasks I've ever had to accomplish in this lifetime is to look within myself and be honest with me. It's so easy to put blinders on and refuse to acknowledge the parts of yourself that are ugly or painful or hurtful. But the only way to stop the ugliness or pain is to face those things, to bring them into the light, to wash them clean and help them heal.

I had a confrontation recently. I was accused of some behavior that was sub-par for my personal standards. I reacted in anger. For a while afterward, I tried to bring forgiveness into my heart for the person who confronted me. The painful realization was that I needed to forgive myself. Everything I was accused of doing was true and my anger was a result of the shame I felt.

So I fessed up. I was honest with myself that I needed to change. I brought out into the light the bits of me that caused that bad behavior in the first place and have begun healing. I have forgiven myself for that behavior and the anger I felt when confronted. And I have asked forgiveness from those I effected.

The road to truth is not always easy, but it's worth it. I am so thankful to the people who tell me what I need to hear, not just what I want to hear. I pray everyone will be so blessed.

Love to you all. Namaste.